Where do I begin? I wish all of you could feel what I am feeling right now. I am not making any sense. This would have made more sense if had been blogging my thoughts this whole time, but I haven't so now I am just babbling. Okay, compose yourself, Lana.
So today started off as a sad day for me. For some reason, EVERYTHING was reminding of what happened last month and I kept getting choked up throughout the day. Luckily, Jake's work day ended fairly early and he came home and surprised me with a very deserving Wild Cherry Pepsi. (I haven't had caffine in over a year and have been really craving it!) Anyway, it was nice to talk to him and just explain my sadness to someone. Afterwards, I was able to pull myself together enough to start doing household chores and my phone rang. It wasn't a number I recognized, which normally I don't answer, but for some reason I just did. It was LDS Family Services calling to speak to me about an adoption orientation that I had signed up for. First, let me explain that I had been inquiring about the adoption process and was told that I could set up an appointment to meet with someone one on one to talk to about adoption. So I went at the end of December to LDSFS to try to set up an appointment, but the secretary there said that they have one meeting a month which they call their "orientation" which she could sign me up for. It was set for January 20th. I was disappointed that we couldn't meet with someone earlier and tried to ask for paperwork, so we could get the process started, but she insisted that we had to go to this meeting. I can't explain the urgency I have for getting this done quickly, and I am not very aggressive at trying to get what I want, so I dropped it and signed up for the orientation.
Soooo, now on to 5 minutes ago. I thought the lady from LDSFS was calling to confirm our attendance for the 20th, but she actually called to say that the orientation was cancelled and that an adoption counselor could meet with us one on one! (Which is what I preferred because I am not much of a group person.) And guess when? TOMORROW!!!! I know that it is just an informational meeting, but I am soooo excited to get this started. It feels so right! As I was speaking to the lady I felt the spirit so strongly telling me that "everything is going to work out". Oh how I needed that!
I know this may seem all of a sudden and as if we are moving very quickly, but I assure you that I know that we are suppose to adopt. I recieved confirmation a few days after having surgery and trust me when I say that as I was praying this was not the answer I had been looking for during that prayer. (I will get more into that story later.)
So today started off as a sad day for me. For some reason, EVERYTHING was reminding of what happened last month and I kept getting choked up throughout the day. Luckily, Jake's work day ended fairly early and he came home and surprised me with a very deserving Wild Cherry Pepsi. (I haven't had caffine in over a year and have been really craving it!) Anyway, it was nice to talk to him and just explain my sadness to someone. Afterwards, I was able to pull myself together enough to start doing household chores and my phone rang. It wasn't a number I recognized, which normally I don't answer, but for some reason I just did. It was LDS Family Services calling to speak to me about an adoption orientation that I had signed up for. First, let me explain that I had been inquiring about the adoption process and was told that I could set up an appointment to meet with someone one on one to talk to about adoption. So I went at the end of December to LDSFS to try to set up an appointment, but the secretary there said that they have one meeting a month which they call their "orientation" which she could sign me up for. It was set for January 20th. I was disappointed that we couldn't meet with someone earlier and tried to ask for paperwork, so we could get the process started, but she insisted that we had to go to this meeting. I can't explain the urgency I have for getting this done quickly, and I am not very aggressive at trying to get what I want, so I dropped it and signed up for the orientation.
Soooo, now on to 5 minutes ago. I thought the lady from LDSFS was calling to confirm our attendance for the 20th, but she actually called to say that the orientation was cancelled and that an adoption counselor could meet with us one on one! (Which is what I preferred because I am not much of a group person.) And guess when? TOMORROW!!!! I know that it is just an informational meeting, but I am soooo excited to get this started. It feels so right! As I was speaking to the lady I felt the spirit so strongly telling me that "everything is going to work out". Oh how I needed that!
I know this may seem all of a sudden and as if we are moving very quickly, but I assure you that I know that we are suppose to adopt. I recieved confirmation a few days after having surgery and trust me when I say that as I was praying this was not the answer I had been looking for during that prayer. (I will get more into that story later.)
I know in my heart that Heavenly Father's plan for us is to adopt.
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