It hurts to think about what we went through, what we are still going through, and for what lies ahead.
I sometimes try to find the humor in the situation just to get through those moments, you know the one that stings and tears start to fill up and really you just don’t feel like going through all that again. Just when you think have you have no more tears left to cry, somehow they find a way to break through.
Its hard not to think of what you would have been.
I prayed for you constantly to be healthy, but no matter how many prayers were for you, it just wasn’t part of His plan for us to raise you here on this Earth.
I have to accept that.
But today, when my arms are empty, they long for your tenderness, your warmth, and for the joy I know you would have brought into our lives.
As I look at pictures of my adorable nieces and nephews it hits me on what I’m missing out on… with you.
I know I can’t dwell on the what if’s, but today I can because one year ago you changed my life.
I can’t forget that.
And tomorrow… well, tomorrow is a new day and I will smile tomorrow.
1 comments:
This little one did change your life forever for the hard and the good. You have been in my thoughts and prayers so much in the last month, always, but I know this is an especially hard time.
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